Mar. 26th, 2009 @ 05:18 pm Is been a rough day (warning, wibbling and wangst ahead)
location: On the bus home
Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: Horselips; Trouble
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Its roughly the anniversary of mom's passing and I find myself breaking out in random tears and taking stuff personally.

Even when its not.

I hate it.

It sneaks up on me while I am in meetings at work. When I am in conversations with others. While I am driving the car or riding the bus.

Tears leak from my eyes without stopping and I am finding it hard to deal.

For me, this is not normal. Death is a part of life, and I KNOW in my deepest of hearts that her passing was the best thing that could have happened for her. I accept death and don't tend to dwell on it, except this year I am.

I'll call my sis tonight, share some tears with her. Spend sometime hiding in the bath, trying to ground and find my balance again.

Because I must.
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From:[info]passive_stalker
Date: March 26th, 2009 - 09:41 pm
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I'm right there with you.
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From:[info]sylumgator
Date: March 28th, 2009 - 08:47 am
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My mom has been gone for 14yrs early this month. I still get weepy sometimes. (not what you wanted to hear, I suppose). I know she is a LOT better off now. Still... it's hard. Learning to accept and move on is as much a part of accepting the death and life cycle. It's just not always the easiest part.
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From:[info]trappergraves
Date: March 28th, 2009 - 07:55 pm
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Doesn't matter what your rational mind thinks about what you should do, or think or feel. What's important is your heart. You'll get your balance. Give yourself a chance to get weepy and wrap yourself in your mom's love. There's nothing wrong with indulging that little luxury. It's necessary, too. Not all tears are evil.

BIg hugs, lady, and best of thoughts and energy to you.
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From:[info]pandaluvs83
Date: March 30th, 2009 - 04:19 am

*BIG HUGS*

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you know the song 'its my party and i'll cry if i want to'? well, your life is your party and you can cry if you want to. i've been there with my grandpa and the first anniversary of his passing was on easter. lets just say it was bittersweet, and there is nothing like loosing a loved one. crying is a part of healing. so cry. its good for you. what is bad is getting frustrated over it. so *BIG HUGS!!!!!* and don't get frustrated.
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